I AM What Happened (Facebook Throwback)

This was originally posted as a note on Facebook Wednesday, May 14, 2008 at 5:08pm

I AM What Happened 2:25pm 3/7/2008


The next time they see me they gon' be like “DAMN! What happened to you?! You glowing 'n shit. All happy. You must got a new man or something.” and I'll just simply shout from the diaphragm being the singer that I AM “Me! I AM what happened!”

Forever gone is the insecure little girl that was hiding inside and trying to get me to retreat to the depths of my mind with her. Well she's not gone, but she is off doing her own thing. She's happy now and only shows up occasionally and is no longer the one in control.

I explained to her...it took me a while, but I explained to her that all of the hurt, the pain, the loneliness, that “I'm swimming against the tide and the whole world is against me” feeling that she carried within from being around the ones without the light between the ages of 5-23 was to prepare her for the immense joy that her 24th year and beyond would bring her...bring us.

I told her that my life-long search for God had ended. I found the All That Is and now I have finally found the peace we had both sought after for so long. What I didn't realize was that my journey was only beginning and everyday I get to know the love that IS God more and more. And I'm lovin' it more and more!

So when they see joy that emanates from my heart mind body and spirit and ask me, “Why is it that you're so perky all of a sudden?” I'll look at them in their eyes and say “It's because I found Me.” and when they ask me “What are you talking about?” I'll simply look past their eyes and into their soul and just tell them “Look deep within yourself...you'll see.”